Jazz's World

Tough Decisions.

2012-02-17T11:59:00.006Z

If you do not like ranting and moaning please do not read this post for your own sake!

Right now, I have no idea what I want to do with my future. & I've got what feels like no time to decide what I want to do. I've applied for university and I can go if I get the grades. But I don't even know if I want to go. I feel like I'm being forced into something I'm not even sure about. So why should I end up with £27k+ debt if there are no jobs going, and I don't even want to go for the educational purposes? The only thing that appeals to me about uni is meeting new people and having the chance to study abroad. I don't know if I want to carry on studying, I feel like I could tolerate another year, but not three years in the slightest. I never have the motivation to do work now, so how am I going to have the motivation for another three years when there will be even more work?

My other option is to do an apprenticeship. But round my area, all there seems to be is nursery work, and I cannot cope with kids. Babies I like. Kids? No. And I definitely do not want to work with young kids for a living. I can't even think of any other apprenticeships I would like to do. If I did do one, I would consider doing open university in my spare time. But ararararaghhhhhh I just don't know what to do :(.

I have until August to figure this out. It sounds like a long time, but it's not. A month goes by in a flash, so under 6 months is going to go by pretty quick. Seriously, I am nowhere near close to deciding what I want to happen with my life. A few months ago uni was definite, now the reality of what it will actually be like is fading quite fast.

Can someone please make Doctor Who real?

I really want to be a companion.

Now that would be my dream job.

Have a lovely weekend:)

Jazz

Happy day of love.

2012-02-14T11:00:00.000Z

I think Valentines Day is a load of crap. I really do not see the point. Woohoooo yay we all know you love your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife, but you love them every single day, right? Not just one day. So seriously, why do people take it so seriously? They make such a fuss over getting the perfect present for their other half and wanting sparkly jewellery back and going out to the poshest restaurant to show off, when really, I'd rather do nothing.

Right now, (I am going to publish this at 11am UK time, hopefully this actually works) I will be about to step off the train. Picture it in your head now. I am standing at the door whilst the train is slowing down, getting ready to push the button to open the doors. Then, the rest of my day spent with my boyfriend and his family, will be a normal day. Not in the slightest a lovey dovey lovely wubly day. Just. Normal. With a Chinese takeaway to celebrate his mums birthday at the end of the day.

We do still do presents however, but I'd like to say this is the last time we do them. I cannot be bothered with the cafuffle. Although I love looking for cards. I hate soppy cards, I like to find ones that make me chuckle. This year I succeeded. I want it for myself.

Seriously how cool is that card? It moves! I admit, it is slightly cheesy, but not word-wise, which is fabulous. So corny.

I got Matt a frame from TK Maxx for £15 and filled it with a few memories, then got him some David Beckham deodorant (which should have been £10) for £3. I love bargains. I was going to use red tissue paper but then thought naaaah screw it, I do love red but I don't want to be typical on VDay. I will be different.

So happy day of love, whether you are spending the day with someone or not, I send you lots of internet Valentines kisses. Don't worry, it's not classed as cheating.

X X X X X X X X X

If you are not spending the day with someone and you are feeling slightly lonely or sad, help yourself to one of my chocolates. I swear (crosses fingers) the box is not empty already.

Slightly off the topic, how hilarious does Izzy look on that? Honestly, I think she was about to kill me. I can just imagine her thinking:

"Jazz. Jazz. Oh Jazz seriously stop it. Jazz. Jazz, get the camera out my face. Jazz. Jazz, come on, I'm tryna sleep. FOR F*CKS SAKE JASMIN GET THE CAMERA OUT MY FACE."

Hehe.

Jazz.

Woah. Where does time go?

2012-02-12T23:07:00.000Z

Pointless post but aaaaah. This scared me.

I was happily reading before until a random memory popped into my head out of nowhere.

It was one of my older cousin. She went to private school and when she entered the secondary part of her private school, her school year had to have like a prom kind of thing, for the year 7's (aged 11/12). My cousin was a popular kid. Quite a pretty kid too, and lots of the lads most likely fancied her when they probably hadn't even hit puberty yet. Ha. But at this prom, every one of the girls had to be paired with a lad, but they got no choice with who they had to be paired with. My cousin explained to me and my brother that, funnily enough, she ended up with not the best looking lad in the world, and not the most popular by the sounds of it (which probably was not good for her reputation!). I remember being in hysterics when I saw a picture of him, imagining them standing together in photos. A pretty girl, very slim, with long shiny auburn hair standing with a short, stumpy lad with a chubby, round face and uncared for blonde hair. SO funny to a ten year old.

So I was just laughing to myself remembering this. It seemed like, what, 2 years ago? 3 years ago at a push? It just did not seem like it was long ago (I didn't take into consideration of our ages at the time). So I counted on my fingers, like I normally do, and added it up to be 7 years ago that this memory took place. What the freeeeeeekin' hell. That's almost half of my life ago.

Where does time go?

The three amigo's, 3 years after.

All the cousins about 4 and a half years after.

Jazz

I have unlimited money.

2012-02-09T19:28:00.000Z

Well for this blog post anyway.

Here are five things I would immediately buy for myself or my family:

1. A French style bed for mum. Can I also throw in other furniture as well? Everything we own is practically second hand, my mum wants something new at some point ;) OOO our kitchen table isn't second hand, that was a brand new one from Ikea, but it had a single chip in so was like £70. Bargaaaain. And it's a cute, round, white one too. Special find.

2. Absolutely everything on the Cath Kidston website. I especially need a weekend bag (note to Ebayers selling them... ahem, your prices are RIDICULOUS) and I want a glasses case, too.

3. Tickets to go on a ghost walk at night. Oh screw it, I'm doing this whether I have unlimited money or not. Maybe in a few months... or years.

4. A holiday to America for me and my mum, with unlimited shopping and sightseeing. Then we can stop off at the Bahamas on the way back, via a private jet... (and yes we would totally become Lady Gaga).

5. A fake heron for my gran's pond. Little bugger keeps eating them all. Poor fishy's. He needs to be told.

What would you buy?

Jazz

I need to finish my room.

2012-02-08T17:42:00.000Z

I have lived in my house for almost 11 years now and my room has never been completely finished. It has progressed over the years, then slowly become worse, then progressed again... then got worse again. Right now I feel like my room is in limbo.

All my furniture has been the same colour for about 2 years now, which is great (apart from my desk chair). I painted my room in the summer, so the walls are done. I got a new carpet around 2 years go, so that is checked off the list. Then my bedframe was taken down and put in the shed to make room for my mum's double mattress, which I was having. The plan was then for her to get a new bedframe, and I get her old one. Over six months later, my mattress is still on the floor. So all the bits and pieces that would go under my bed, are all over the place. I have never had curtains, just curtain liners. And I have shelves that have been lying around for about 18 months.

So I have now decided this needs to be sorted ASAP.

I am on the hunt for blackout blinds, but cannot find the perfect ones. You see, my window is quite wide, so I don't want a plain blind as it would just look too boring. But I don't want a patterned blind. So I decided I wanted a blind with a wavy edge, but it is impossible to find a blind with a wavy edge, that is also blackout. What difficult times. So I am going to get a plain one, with a straight edge, and my mum said she will decorate it how I like. Yayyyy for mothers.

Then I need a trip to Ikea to get some see through curtains for decorative purposes. They're only £4, bargain!

Everyday I am looking for a bed frame for my mum. But she wants a French style bed which cost a bomb, so we are on the lookout for a cheap one. She wants to spend no more than £400, even that is a stretch, and the cheapest I have found is 500. ARGH!

My plan is then to get these shelves painted and hooked up to the wall. Then I want some silk flowers in a vase for my window ledge. Then I want some rose things to drape round my bed frame when I get it. Then I want a lamp for my bedside table and some fairy lights. Then I need to paint my desk chair. How. Demanding.

Anddd... I want all this done by the end of summer. Ha! Feel free to laugh, I am also laughing at myself. This is just not going to happen...

Every girl can dream though ;).

Also, thank you to those who helped me on my previous post. I have decided what to wear now, so I will post a picture next week :)

How long did it take you to finish your room? Or is it still in the process like mine?

Ta-taaaaa.

Jazz

Fashionista's please help a small problem of mine?

2012-02-04T21:52:00.000Z

I have a 70s party coming up!

Does anyone know what the fashion was like then? I know like hotpants and flared trousers were in, but I would like to avoid these at all costs!

Any ideas on what I could wear? I have wedges and high wasted shorts, would either of these do!? I am not looking to spend more than £10 (small budget I know, but there are still sales around -ish), however I will pay a bit more if it is something that would at least be wearable again!

Pleaaaaase please please pleaaaaaaaaaaaase help. I only like looking at clothes. I'm useless putting them together :( I need Twitter here - #fashionfailure.

Thank you so much if you do help :)

~Jazz

An untrusted seventeen year old.

2012-02-02T20:23:00.000Z

My mum just rang me from the pub saying:

"Jazz, Jazz, is everything okay? Fire engines have been flying past towards the house. What's happened?"

Out of the whole 800ish houses in my part of town, my mum thinks it is our house on fire because I am home alone!

Oh my. I'll blame the oldish age (don't tell her I said that, she's in her ~~50s~~ 20s).

Jazz

Warning: Very picture and text heavy post.

2012-01-29T20:27:00.000Z

Found over on Char's blog :)

A Picture Of You In Your Younger Years

Me and my brother. We never used to get on, we would seriously pick at each other as kids, he'd kick me down the stairs and I would place the beanbag on his face and sit on top of it so he couldn't breathe. Then we kind of started to get on and we would make small talk. Now we kind of do, kind of don't. He can be really nice when he wants to be, then an absolute prat about 60% of the time. He is not in my good books at the moment and I would like him to move out as soon as possible. He worships our 'dad', who does nothing for us and never has, yet practically bullies my mum who does everything for him. He is completely clueless at the moment and acts more like an immature 13 year old rather than an almost 19 year old.

A Picture Of You On Your Birthday Or Your Favourite Holiday

I should probably have a picture of my last birthday but I didn't do anything for my 17th and I can only find pictures from my 15th, where I look an absolute state! So here is a picture from my 11th birthday. I went bowling, then to Frankie&Bennies with my closest friends. Oh how I wish my hair was still this long. What was going through my mind when I chose to get it cut? (I also have a balloon tied to my head incase you are wondering...)

A Picture Of You In Your Room

This was taken quite a few years ago now, it was with my best friends at the time and we were having a typical girly night. Lots of junk food and singing and dancing to Grease. Singing rather loud I might add. I would add a more recent picture but I have no pictures of me in my room!

A Picture Of You Making A Crazy Face In Front Of The Camera
I actually make many strange faces. I will just sit on Skype with Matt and he will be looking at something else and I will just hold a really bizzarre face until he notices. Luckily he understands me and my strange nature. If it were a stranger on Skype, they would most likely end the call. This was with my friend in the summer. Face warps are amazing.

A Picture Of You Showing Off A New Haircut Or Hairstyle
This picture makes me laugh so much. Myspace days were the best. Pull your best pout with your new hairdo. I think I was about 14 here? Or 15? Who knows. That full fringe most certainly did not last at all. It was just so inconvenient, I had to wash it daily because it got so greasy. What a waste of time. 2 precious minutes each day leaning over the bathroom sink. Pfft.

A Picture Of You Being Absolutely Ridiculous
I couldn't actually choose which photo to use for this caption, there were rather a lot of photos. But I think this is one of my favourites considering how embarrassing it is. It was taken at my friend's 16th birthday, where many embarrassing photos were taken. In all the photos, there were loads of orbs, so in this photo I decided I would try and 'hold' an orb. It failed. Not quite sure why I needed to pull that face though.

A Picture Of You With The Friend(s) You've Know The Longest
I have known this girl since the day I was born and we grew up together. We went to different schools however, but we still saw each other once a week, as we went ballroom dancing and ballet together. I wouldn't call her my 'friend' now though, we haven't spoke to each other in a long time. I don't know why, we just stopped seeing each other when we started high school. We used to speak over MSN and Facebook a while back, but then it just stopped. We are completely different people to be honest. But I have some good memories with her.

A Picture Of You & Your Newest Friend
No photo I'm afraid!

A Picture Of You & Someone You Love

I don't love many people. That sounds quite odd. I love my mum, pictured here. I love my Gran. I love my boyfriend. I love my cat. I love a few other family members, but not to huge extent. And I love only a few friends. But I think that's fine. The fewer people you love, the more time you have to show your love to them. I made my mum a cup of tea and English muffins this morning as breakfast in bed. That should do for a couple of weeks ;)

A Picture Of You That You Didn't Know Was Being Taken

There are many of these. I am pretty gormless and have no idea when there is a camera pointing in my direction. However, when there is a camera pointing in my direction, I panic. Big time. I don't know why. Well I do. I'm not photogenic. It runs in the family. No offence to my family, I'm sure you understand. In this picture, from a few weeks ago, a girl was about to take this picture but I didn't realise she was actually about to take it so I spazzed out big time and my hand slammed to my face. Whoops.

A Picture Of You That Describes How You'd Like To Spend Everyday

There are two here actually, as you have probably seen. The one on the left would probably fall into the previous title, but I like food. I like unhealthy food. And this picture shows that, I was whipping out my camera to get a picture of the gorgeous looking brownie. Mmmm. And the picture on the right just shows me being stupid, I like being stupid. So I would like to spend everyday being stupid, whilst eating food. Imagine the outcome...

A Picture That Makes You Smile

I'm not sure if this makes me smile in a good way. It makes me smile because I see a happy, full family. A mum, a dad and a sibling, which most families have. I think it makes me smile because it is weird to see, as it is the only photo as the four of us. But then, it also makes me smile because I am glad this is not the reality today! I am glad it is just me, my mum and brother (although like stated before, right now I would be happier if my brother left home for a bit!).

A Picture Of One Of The Best Days Of Your Life

This is such a bad picture but makes me laugh so much! This isn't actually the best 'day' of my life, but the best time of my life. It was a school trip to Germany for 5 days, when I was 12, which was bloody fantastic. It was great. I was having a bit of trouble at home at the time, so it was so good to get away and forget about everything. I would do almost anything to go back. But oh my goodness, what did I dress like. And the pink, jeeeeesh. And I am guessing I wasn't a fan of German food.

A Picture Of You In Your Favourite Place

I'm saying the past. The past was always a great place to be. I was a pretty happy kid. My favourite place was being in my bedroom with my teddys and rag dolls. My rag dolls would be the first item I would rescue if the house was on fire. They are in a box ready for me to grab. They are called, Taya (my first ever and the one in the picture with me and my monkeys), Katy, Kacey, Giorgia, Annie, Belinda, Lily, Tessa, Roxy, Poppy and Judy. I used to pretend they lived in a care home and I was their owner, who was a giant.

A Picture That You Remember Taking

This was with a girl I used to be really good friends with, who I have blogged about before. If you remember the post then here is a quick update, I sent her a message, she wrote back a few times, then never spoke again. Guess that's that! Well here, I think we were about 13/14. We just had a sleepover and this was the morning after, we were out in the rain on the trampoline and rather liked how this one turned out haha!

A Picture Of You Doing Or Trying Something New

I had actually already done this before about 2 years previous to this. But this was the only picture I had and I was more nervous and worse at it than the first time! I had gone to Center Parcs with my 3 friends and one of their parents' and this was the only activity we paid for. It was such a good weekend. & this picture kind of shows how small I am, and I also look kind of like a boy in this, oh dear!

A Picture Of You In A Time Of Your Life That You Wish Wasn't Over

There's many times in my life I wish weren't over, so more than one picture was needed. The one with the snowmen was with the girls who were at my house that time singing to Grease and the ones I also went to Center Parcs with. I had the best of times with them three. And yes, we did make both of the snowmen. It took A LOT of time. And trying to get the middle ball onto the bottom one was near impossible. But so much fun.

The picture on the top right is of my old form group at high school. Each of those girls had such an impact on my life, they were such great friends and I would love to go back to that time.

The picture at halloween with my old next door neighbour really makes me want to go back to times with her. She moved next door to me when I was about 8, or almost 8 and we played out like practically everyday and did the funniest things in the world. We used to think a witch lived near us and spied on her. We sang (whilst standing on a tree stump) in my backgarden like they do on films, like seriously belting it out. We made up the song as well. It was probably about the witch in all honesty... Then her mum got pregnant again with her stepdad and they wanted to move house. So just before they moved house and into a different town, she increased my rag doll collection by giving me Roxy (yes I still played with them at 11!). We saw each other every few months for about 2 years after that, then lost contact.

You had your warning so hope this post didn't tire you out if you did read it all!

& I guess many of the photos kind of fell into the first title, but never mind!
Feel free to copy and have a wonderful week :).
Jazz.

Just a few tips on how to make me scared of you & a little update.

2012-01-27T19:03:00.000Z

Every person gets scared of certain things. And certain people can scare others by what they do. If you want to make me leg it from you for any reason, then do one of these things:

Whistle to yourself in public whilst on your own. This generally scares me. If you are a man however, I will automatically think you are a pervert (prejudging, I know).

Say the word 'boogie'. Oh my God. I hate it, I want to cry.

Tell me one of my memories that I thought no one knew. This happened one time, I don't even know what happened to my face, it must have done something funny because it felt pretty odd.

Follow me round college rubbing your hands together. I won't go into this further...

Turn your head to the side and stare at me. This actually hasn't happened but would really freak me out.

What things do people do that creep you out?

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It's great to be back on here again, I am happy to admit that I have had a few withdrawal symptoms. Oops. I gave in my coursework in on Monday and did my exam on Tuesday, which went ok but not great. At least all the hard work is over now, thank goodness.

I am going to the cinema tomorrow with Matt to see some film about a plane crashing and a man being chased by wolves in the arctic. Anyone seen this? Sounds bizzarre.

We also booked the holiday for in the summer to Majorca! Woohoo. I actually haven't had the best experiences of Majorca, so not completely fond of the place currently. But the place we're going to looks sweet so I am verrrry excited :)

I don't have any interesting pictures to share with you, as I haven't done much. But these are the best I could find on my phone!

I loved this screensaver thing on my Kindle last week so I thought I would take a picture... as you do. It's a shame it changes all the time :(

Have you done anything interesting lately?

Hopefully I will have a new blog layout soon as well, I am waiting for Matt to code it for me, so I am pretty excited to set that up! I like changes.

Lots of love.
Jazz

My side of the bed.

2012-01-13T19:31:00.000Z

I got a double bed just after my birthday in August. I won't go into all the detail because it's unnecessary, but I am currently on a double mattress on the floor, awaiting a bed frame. I think I have mentioned it before anyway.

When I first got it, I was confused as to which side I was meant to sleep on. My bedside table with my alarm clock was on the left of my bed (the left being if I am lying in it), but I found it more comfortable to sleep on the right hand side. But then I found that was torture in the morning when my alarms go off because I have to roll all the way onto the other side of the bed to turn off a horrible, piercing noise (this takes time in the morning because I am the type of person that refuses to wake up, so my alarm would be going for about a minute or two). So then I decided I would make myself get used to sleeping on the left hand side, which took a week or so, but I got used to it, and now the left hand side of my bed is like heaven - I love it. & the cat sleeps on the side I used to love sleeping on. I do also love sprawling out in the middle of the bed, like literally sprawling out, and Iz will have to sleep at the end of the bed in the corner. So to make things a bit less confusing, I now class the left hand side of the bed, my side.

So, I like sleeping like this:

I find it comfortable sleeping in either of these ways. But I now hate sleeping on the right hand side of the bed, left side looking at the pictures. But. But but but. The other night I was lying in bed, on the side that is no longer 'my side', putting stuff back on my bookshelf. Then I just put my head down and closed my eyes, still on the side I don't like. Then I must have drifted off for 5 or 10 minutes. & when I woke up... BAM. Isobel was on my side of the bed. My side. I didn't want to move her because sometimes when I do that, she just jumps off and sleeps elsewhere and it sounds pathetic, but I feel better when she sleeps on my bed! Oh God, how sad is that?! Anyway, I had to sleep the whole night on the wrong side of the bed, which was originally my favourite side of the bed, but now the nightmare side of the bed, confusing, huh? And I barely slept at all. It was horrible. Never again will that be happening.

So, I have now learnt how important my side of the bed is.

Which side of the bed do you sleep on?

Do you absolutely have to sleep on that side?

Quick update - I have not been busy in the slightest, apart from the college work I haven't done anything at all really, oh I had a party last weekend which was okay. But I have missed Blogger very much! So, I will now be catching up with your posts, then I will be absent again. My exam is on the 24th of this month, so expect a post any time after then :)

Hope you are all great and having a fun month!

~Jazz

Just a quick hello...

2012-01-03T13:31:00.000Z

Not stopping long on here, but this is just a quick post to say I will probably be absent from Blogger until the end of January, this is because lots of college work needs completing and I will be revising for my exams this month! I may do a post at some point to recap on what I have been up to, although not much will have happened.

Happy new year too! How was your new year? Mine was pretty good, although I was very tired due to lack of sleep so I spent most the night yawning.

Sorry about that awful picture with the huge nose, I look a bit like Miss Piggy I think, but I found it hilarious so I thought I'd share it with you!

Matt also suggested that we go on holiday this year too, so his mum and dad are going to come along with us. They normally go to places like Greece and the Canaries so we are looking there. I have only ever been to Greece once (Crete), and I have always wanted to go to Lanzarote or Tenerife! I have found a hotel in Lanzarote I like, placed right on the beach! Ooo how nice. Matt has said he will pay for me as my 18th birthday present (probably because I can't get a job and I am skint), but I will still save up and pay as much as I can.

Anyway, I shall toodle. I have a bit of coursework to do today then I am just going to chill on my last day off of the Christmas holidays!

When are you back at work/college/university/school?

See you soon!

Keep up to date with me on my new Twitter if you like.

~Jazz

"New Year, New Me"

2011-12-30T18:59:00.000Z

Oh come on, likely story.

I hate this saying. The person someone is now is the person they will always be. Yeah, they may change slightly in certain ways over time, most people do, but there is no chance at all anyone is going to change completely. Grr, makes me angry.

Personally, I think you should only have one resolution, that way, you are more likely to achieve it.

I think mine this year is to make the most out of everything. I do take many things for granted and I really need to sort myself out in this way. It's only a small one, but there is not point making a really big one that is going to be hard to achieve.

I have to say my 2011 has been ok, not great, but not awful either. I'll jot down a few things that have happened this year...

• The house boiler broke down when it was snowing heavy = freezing cold baths for a week

• Received a hate letter off an ex-bestfriend randomly (please take in mind that she was 17 years old at the time)

• Celebrated 2 years with Matt

• Spent a week in Ibiza with my mum
• Tried and failed to get a job

• Got better grades in my AS Levels than I thought I would

• Went to Chester Zoo twice after years of not going, didn't really enjoy either trip

• Met people I think I will be in contact with for quite a long time

• Received three conditional offers from universities (conditional meaning if I get the grades)

And finally...

I made my blog! And found all your wonderful blogs to read. I actually think making a blog is one of the best things I've done, it's actually like the diary which I always used to write in as a kid, so it's kind of like a place for me to get away to. It's hard to explain, I'm sure you all understand.

Anyway guys, I am departing from blogger and will see you all next year! Well, I will hang around on Blogger for tonight and read your posts. I am going to my boyfriends tomorrow then we are going to a 007 night with his parents. I am actually pretty excited because this is the first time we will be spending new year together, so it should be fun.

Oh and guys, I have made a Twitter specifically for my blog, this is because I would rather people I know personally, do not find my blog. So now when I tweet, I will say when a new post is likely to be added to my blog, and I will also just tweet general rubbish like I did on my other Twitter. So go ahead and follow me here if you would like to read more of my nonsense. Or post your link below and I will happily follow you.

Do you have any New Years resolutions? If so, what are they?

How have you spent your 2011? Have you enjoyed it?

Best wishes for the whole of 2012 and I hope it's your best year yet.

Lots of virtual New Year hugs to you all.

~Jazz

Things you may not know.

2011-12-29T16:22:00.000Z

Just a few facts, some very bizarre facts, some boring, that may help you get to know me a little more.

The general.

• I actually do not like the colour pink. Bit weird considering my whole blog is centered around the colour and I enjoy buying pink things. Strange.

• I hate pizza. Pizza is a horrible thing. Ew.

• I hate deep water because my foot once got tangled in some sea plant sort of thing and I was under water for about half a minute or so.

• I love shabby chic and white French furniture, my aim is to get my bedroom like this one day. But nicer.

• I always order tap water at restaurants because it's free. Cheapskate right?

• I tend to cry an awful lot. At anything. Films, music, tv programmes, pictures.

• Oh my God. The Irish accent on a tall, gorgeous man. Ahhhhh - drools.

• I used to be a big nerd and really clever, then I gave up.

• I have to wear glasses but rarely do.

The weird.

• I like strange food combinations. One of my favourites being strawberry jam and sour cream and onion Pringles in a sandwich together.

• My arms are double jointed, so yeah... my arms are pretty gross.

• I talk to my cat like she's human, who doesn't though? I also tuck her into bed, she has a comfort blanket too.

• I believe in ghosts and believe I have seen one for sure, if not two. Debating the second one due to my imagination. But the first one was definitely there, it was an old lady in a rocking chair in my old house and she was just sat there rocking away, then she kind of floated down the hallway. My brother saw her too.

• I have done a ouija board with my friends which some people would disagree with completely, oh well, it didn't exactly work out anyway - sob.

• I like talking in weird voices. I'd actually probably be a pretty good voice over if I tried, without sounding too boastful.

• I have my life set out (get ready): I must be married when I am 25. I must have my first child at 26, it must be a boy. I must have my second child at 30, it must be a girl. I must have my third and final child at around 34, give or take a year, and that must be a girl. I must have a 5 bedroomed Georgian house, master bedroom with ensuite, and no more than one and a half acres of free land - I can't garden to save my life. Oh and I have a variety of kids names picked out. My secret though, can't have people stealing them ;) Who wants to bet on all of this?

• I probably come across as a creep as I like watching people, not in a creepy way though. I just find people so interesting. Ok, maybe I am a creep...

• I can't run, when I do my arms flap about like a bird.

• I have always believed that I will die before I am 20, I really do not know why I have always believed this... And it's a tad scary seeing as I only have two and a half years left as a teenager... Eee I'm weird.

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Hopefully this has given you a deeper insight to my world and what I'm like, feel free to unfollow if you're now a tad scared.

I may do one of these posts every now and then.

Do you have any bizarre facts about yourself?

If you want to know more about a specific point on this post let me know. Or email me if you know anyone you think I should see, e.g. a personal trainer to prevent my arms flapping, or give me the number of an Irish man you know, I will welcome that whilst my mouth hits the floor.

~Jazz

My cat, my Kindle, and all things Christmas related.

2011-12-28T17:23:00.000Z

How was everyone's Christmas!?

It's a shame it is already over, and an even bigger shame I never even had a chance to have my favourite sandwich - turkey and cranberry. This is because a certain someone, ahem my brother, finished off the turkey. I am actually quite upset about this, I was looking forward to one for weeks. Never mind, that's family for you!

I had a great day, awoke at half seven and thought my mum would be a tad mad if I got up then so I slept for another hour and a bit, then sneaked into my mums room with my stocking! I finally got my hands on my beautiful Kindle! I am in love. I was very spoilt this year presents-wise, so I am so so very grateful for everything I got!

I will now post some pictures of the day. Some pictures include 'Santa's' footprints, and a beautiful bracelet I received off my boyfriends grandparents! Oh and, my brother is staring at a packet of real worms that are edible. Meant to be Bushtucker Trials! He actually ate them too...

My baby.

Let me know if you have uploaded a post of how you spent your day, I would love to see it!

Lots of love.

~Jazz

Just a little wish...

2011-12-24T21:17:00.000Z

for each and everyone one of you to have a fantastic Christmas tomorrow!

(Or if you have celebrated it today, then I hope you have had a wonderful day!)

Are you all excited?

These are the Christmas cakes I decorated and some Christmas cupcakes I made.

I spent yesterday with Matt and received a digital camera off him! Ooo-la. I got him a wireless computer mouse and a Blu-Ray and bits and bobs, he asked for the mouse, I'm not that dull that I decide on presents like that for people hehe...

Here are some pictures of at Matt's, we made a gingerbread house and it kind of broke at the back... my fault. I also like placing his bean bag on his bed and watching TV, is that weird? I feel really tall when I do it (bare in mind I am 4ft11). The picture of the fireplace is testing out my new cam! & I am not posting the picture of me and Matt because I look horrendous. I am spending New Year with him at a James Bond themed night so we will hopefully get a nice photo then which I will post!

Then today I had a major tidy of my room to impress Santa... then we visited my aunties house then came home and made some gingerbread houses! Mine is on the left and my brothers is on the right. Yes, we are 17 and 18 and still enjoy making them. (And Matt is 19 and overly enjoyed it at his). About an hour ago I heard my mum yelling in the kitchen "oooooh noooooooo, Jai, Jai, Jai, your house is going down", and she was right, my brothers house had collapsed. This is why only females should be left to do this kind of stuff! Who agrees?

Anyway, I am going for a big bubble bath, then going to watch a bit of Christmas Eve trashy tele!

I really hope everyone enjoys their day tomorrow. Lots of love to you all.

Merry Christmas!

~Jazz

Shaking like never before.

2011-12-21T18:37:00.000Z

Well. I have just got back from the dentist. And that was an experience I want to forget! (For anyone who doesn't yet know, I went to get my two front teeth shaved then a filling put on)

Me & my mum got there and my appointment was at 3.15, we didn't go into the room until 3.55. He gave me the numbing injection twice, one at the side of each tooth. I have had it before, but oh my, the feeling was horrible. It wasn't painful, but I could feel it like swimming around inside my gums, then could feel the needle get pulled out. Oh God, ugh. He then said, wait for ten minutes and I will come and get you.

Half an hour passed by and my top lip felt like it had gained 5 stone and felt incredibly fat, so I had started to drool, much to my embarrassment... oh and my nose had gradually got numb. The dentist finally called me in and he got to work. It took forever (well, half an hour), and I have never been so nervous in the chair! I'm normally fine at the dentists but I was holding each arm with my hands, squeezing the fat on my upper arm and I could feel my whole body shaking, it was crazy! Anyway, they're finally done now and they look pretty good. They won't last forever, but I'm pleased for now. But not so pleased about spending two hours at the dentist.

We got home from visiting family yesterday too, travelling much quicker than normal so it only took us 3 1/2 hours each way which is bloody great to be honest! The only problems we encountered were drivers in the village before our town, and in our town too. One driver was actually travelling at 5mph. 5mph. I don't drive but I know that that is a pathetic speed. Then again, I do live in a town full of O.A.P.'s.

I didn't take this, but this is the town we went to!

Whilst down south, we went to a town called Winchester, which was pretty sweet. We hired out a wheelchair for my little cousin, as she has had to have an keyhole surgery on her leg as her bones were twisting. She will have to have the same again on her other leg as soon as her current cast is off. So because of this, someone made her a gingerbread house which we soon demolished! It was deee-lish. Sorry about my uncles foot in the first picture of it, he is a bit of a pain.

That is my mum in the pictures with us! & sorry about my hair being greasy, I don't wash it when I go down south because they always get spiders in the bathroom!

What have you been up to?

Have you had any traumatic dentist experiences?

I am going to my gran's tomorrow to decorate the Christmas cakes and make some Christmas cupcakes! Praying they will go right...

I might do a post of them tomorrow. But in the meantime, enjoy your Wednesday night!

~Jazz

Laughing but slightly apprehensive...

2011-12-18T14:01:00.000Z

I think my boyfriend has a stalker... I think it's hilarious but I am slightly worried!

She like tweets him really weird stuff like 'I miss you:(' and 'I NEED to hear your nice words:(', what on earth!? Then she retweets things like 'If only you knew how much our little conversations mean to me' and 'that feeling when you're growing attached to someone', erm, he has a girlfriend you know. I mean, I might be reading the situation really wrong and she might be on about another lad, but come on, seriously. & she texts him such random things when we're together! She is just plain weird. I admit I am a very jealous person, but who wouldn't be a tad curious about that!?
Oh, and she told Matt a few months ago she was pregnant when she wasn't at all...

Anyway, I am off to visit family later on for a few days, so I probably won't be on here until about Thursday as I am getting my teeth done on Wednesday, so so sooo nervous. But very excited!

Here are some pictures from my last two nights out. I am suffering from a bit of a sore throat now.

Just to remind you all, I am not photogenic in the slightest! The last picture is awful but cracks me up, I didn't even realise it was me!

Have a fun start to the week and enjoy the rest of your weekend.

Has anyone else done anything fun?

~Jazz

I hate waiting to get ready.

2011-12-16T17:13:00.001Z

As I mentioned a few days ago, I am going to a party tonight, like a fancy dress.. go as a film star or someone from a film. I am going as Ava Gardner, not that I will end up looking like her.

So please wish me luck in getting ready! I am currently sat with my hair pinned up praying it will go right. I am also sat here bored out my wits, it is too early to do my makeup and I have nothing to do. Booo.

So I will do this Santa Tag which Char has done. Feel free to copy & do your own answers.

Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate?

No idea what 'egg nog' is, so hot chocolate, although I don't drink that so much.

Does Santa wrap presents or just puts them under the tree?

Both, just find it extremely strange Santa has the same wrapping paper as my mum, does this happen to anyone else?:S

Colored or white lights on tree/house?

White! I do like coloured ones but my preference is white.

Do you hang mistletoe?

No I don't... yet.

When do you put your decorations up?

Whenever we can be bothered getting it out my Gran's loft!

What is your favourite holiday dish?

Like Char said, Christmas dinner, obviously.

Favourite holiday memory?

Erm, I'm not sure really, not exactly a favourite but I find it hilarious how one Christmas, I asked for 'Baby Annabelle' clothes, clearly for Baby Annabelle, and I got none and stormed to my room in a huff. Yes I was a bit of a spoilt brat!

Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve?

Erm not really, unless I see Matt before Christmas which I will be doing, but that isn't Christmas Eve.

How do you decorate your Christmas Tree?

Lights, tinsel and random decorations, no baubles, except the Simon Cowell one.

Snow! Love it or dread it?

I dread it at the moment, as I won't be able to see Matt, but after that it's more than welcome to snow (it actually did a bit today hmph).

Can you ice skate?

Not at all, I am cringing thinking about it!

Do you remember your favorite gift?

Like Char said, when I got my Nintendo DS (however the very first version), I rang my friend in excitement (she was getting one too) to see what she had called her Nintendog. Mine was called Taya and was a Shih-Tzu. R.I.P my beautiful Nintendo.

What's the most important thing about the Holidays for you?

Erm, I am not sure, making sure everyone is happy.

What's your favourite holiday dessert?

Chocolate log! Or even Christmas pudding, mmmm so good.

What is your favourite holiday tradition?

The way my mum makes me and my brother stay upstairs whilst she gets a wash and she has to go down first, and there happens to be Santa's footprints all over the floor... strangely, he has size 4 feet and he has obviously been standing in flour for some reason. Love it all the same!

What tops your tree?

A fairy which is actually meant to hang from the tree but we put elastic round her legs and stick her on the top!

Which do you prefer: giving or receiving?

Normally, it sounds awful, but receiving, I won't lie about that. However, this year, I am quite like the little boy on the John Lewis advert. If you haven't watched it, I won't spoil it completely, so watch it here. That is how I feel this year!

Candy canes... yuck or yum!?

Erm, in the middle, I can live without!

Favorite Christmas show?

All the Christmas specials, Doctor Who especially! Royal Family, Coronation Street...

Saddest Christmas Song

Probably the Band Aid one.

Enjoy your Friday night and weekend!

~Jazz

2 weeks and counting.

2011-12-11T19:32:00.001Z

One too many pictures I promised of ourChristmas decorations. Sorry some are blurry, I have quite shaky hands! Izzyjoined in decorating the house and then left us to clear up. And yes, SimonCowell is on our tree, he is a God to me and my mum.

Has everyone else put their decorations up yet? Or have you not had time? Or even going away so you don't need to!? That would be nice.

I am hoping for it not to snow just yet as I have quite a busy next two weeks, so from Christmas Eve, it can snow! Snow on Christmas would be nice.

& I have just found out I will be spending new years with my boyfriend for the first time which will be lovely. Only thing is, we are going to a place where you need to dress up rather nice, which means I have to wear heels. I hate heels. I don't mind admitting I cannot walk in them to save my life. I think my night will either be spent sat down, or clung to Matt. That shall be interesting!

Enjoy your week bloggers. Got anything planned? I have a horrible amount of work then two parties to end off the week, one being a fancy dress, so I am going as a none slutty pin up girl!

~Jazz

What makes me laugh and smile most?

2011-12-10T20:19:00.001Z

I do have a thing at the side of my page of what makes me smile, but I will make a list of a few things here that come to the top of my mind.

1. Misfits (E4). Possibly the funniest programme going. I am in love with Rudy and was previously in love with Nathan. I almost wet myself every episode with laughter.

2. Upbeat songs. Not like clubbing songs, I can tolerate those songs, but not those. But I mean like really dance(y) songs, I can't give an example, but like ones with great words and a great beat that makes you want to get up and dance round your living room in your pyjamas.

3. Old photographs. I just love memories, like most people do. I especially like seeing photos of a particular event that you have completely forgotten about and the memories come flooding back.

4. Making people laugh. I don't do it often, I have an awful sense of humour, I am just pathetic with jokes. People normally laugh at me, not with me, but that does not matter, I still feel smug and smile like a cheshire cat. Great feeling.

5. Fireworks. They almost make me want to cry because I smile so much at them. No idea why.

6. Youtube videos. I think that is the place I laugh the hardest. Yesterday, I was actually crying my eyes out at this video;

7. My family and boyfriend (including cat). Do I need to say much more?

Seven may be an unlucky number, but they are the top seven things that comes to mind most.

I may or may not be posting pictures of my Christmas decorations tomorrow, hopefully I will be!

What makes you smile or laugh most?

Keep smiling and laughing.

~Jazz

Feeling sorry for myself...

2011-12-02T17:57:00.000Z

when it was my fault I got into the situation.

I will make this quick and I know so many of you will think I am overreacting which I know I am!

Anyway, I have to top my phone up (£10) before the 1st of each month to receive unlimited texts and internet and £10 call time the next month. So, if I want the 'allowances' as T-Mobile calls them, in say January, I need to top up £10 before the 1st January to receive them. I have been doing this for two years and never once missed a month where I have forgot to top up my phone. So yesterday, the 1st, I was happily texting away and using the internet on my phone to my hearts content, until I suddenly got a text saying "you have 94p remaining...", my immediate thought "SHIT", I had completely forgot to top it up.

This is probably what my face was like.

So now I have no unlimited texts or internet on my phone for a whole month. And I really rely on my texts, as I have previously mentioned before, me and my boyfriend do not live close to each other, so we rely on texting a lot of the time. Now I can't even text him, the month when it is Christmas and coming up to New Year and the month I am going away down south to see family, so he won't be able to call and I won't be able to go on Skype. Then I rely on the internet to check my emails, which I very often urgently need to check. Pfft.

I have let myself down big time.

I know, I know, I agree it is my fault and I am ~~a little annoyed~~ fucking pissed off with myself. Pardon my language. It has just upset me most that I forgot one little thing in the month that it's Christmas. Like tonight, we are putting up the Christmas tree and I was going to send a picture to Matt and my friend of the tree, but now I can't.

But my lovely, lovely, lovely boyfriend topped my phone up with £20 this morning, so that has got to last me a whole month, that is 200 texts when I usually send about 3000. Ouch. (Although I can get a text bundle for 300 texts to last the month which I think I am going to have to get!)

December has not started well.

Have you had any problems so far to start the month off?

Hope you are all well.

~Jazz

...ahaha I have just noticed that I have 1234 pageviews.
Is this sad that I found this amazing, almost like it was impossible that it could be 1234?
Oh I can be so incredibly sad at times! Although thank you so much for the views!

A little bit of everything.

2011-11-29T13:49:00.000Z

As I have been slacking with doing posts lately, this post is going to be dedicated to updating you on everything! (Well from what I can remember that has happened... if anything has even happened at all).

I cannot actually remember whether I have posted about this, but I have not posted the pictures. The other week my mum got out mine and my brothers 'childhood boxes', where she has stored random things in them from our lives so that we can look through them when we are older and have a laugh and smile! However, because they have been stored in the back of her wardrobe, whenever she has meant to put things in our box she just crams them in, so the boxes started overflowing quite a lot and me and Jai no longer had our own boxes as all the stuff became muddled. So it was my job to sort them out! This is some of the stuff I came across: (warning; lots of pictures)

If you can't read this and would like to know what it says
then leave a comment asking and I will write it out on this!

And the same goes for this...

Me and Matthew then went to Manchester a few weeks back and I really had it in my mind that I was going to buy loads, and I mean loads. I came back with a jumper. That is all. However it is kind of a Christmassy jumper which I have been after for a while, and I didn't even buy it, Matt kindly treated me to it, so I bought zilch! Pardon the dirty mirror...

I went to Matt's and saw the dogs, including the puppy which I am still not completely fond of, but I am warming to him, partly because he looked like a mop. & tomorrow we are going to Liverpool (I have the day of college because of strikes) so I can try and finish my Christmas shopping which I am sick to death of now! I spent £50 online yesterday for little 'extras', not even main presents! Although £10 of that was for a Kindle case when I don't even have a Kindle yet... We are also going to see Breaking Dawn which I am very excited to see! Has anyone seen it? Is it any good? I've heard mixed reviews so can't be sure!

I can't really think of much else I have done! I lead a rather simple life, I am not what you call a 'wild child', I enjoy taking life slow! However I am a bit annoyed because I like to be quite lazy the week before Christmas and I have been invited to a few 18th's, I am going down south to visit family, seeing Matt and I am also getting my teeth done so it is a rather hectic week (that is of course if it doesn't snow like last year).

What has everyone got planned for Christmas?

How is your xmas shopping going?

Also, yesterday morning I woke up absolutely freezing. So I decided that last night I would put my throw on my bed that I bought with birthday money a while back. I was after a Cath Kidston one but they were just so expensive, so I found one in BHS for £60, bargain! Although when I woke up this morning, I was so so so hot, I guess it does the job then! (My bed is on the floor because my mum was going to buy a new bed frame and give me her old one, so she bought a new mattress whilst she was at it and gave me her old, however she wants a white french bed but they are too expensive, so she is still saving!) I tried it on my mums bed too just to see what it would look like!

Sorry for the very heavy post! Hope everyone is well, I am currently sat in pyjamas watching Loose Women (which will have probably finished by the time I finish editing this post) listening to the wind whistle an awful lot and watch the rain go a tad crazy. It is not a nice day in the slightest.

Quick update - I completely forgot to add this. Thank you so so much for all your views on my previous post, no matter what you think, I am always very grateful for your input! I got in touch with the girl that night and we just spoke about university and stuff. She then said she had to go and said 'speak soon', which she said last year when I got in contact with her, and we never spoke again until the other night. So I kind of see now there is not much point in trying. Maybe we will speak about once a year, but we will never be what we were. Possibly for the best?

What are your plans for the rest of this week?

I have a bit of coursework to do and an essay which I completely forgot about, hmph.

Lots of love to you all.

~Jazz

Do I or don't I?

2011-11-23T18:34:00.000Z

Everyone has experienced drifting away from someone you care about and love. And everyone has experienced the thoughts that come after it. Do I try and make things the way they used to be, or do I let things be and see what happens? I don't know how long people should think these thoughts, but I have been thinking them a little too long for my own good.

The story.

I met this girl in high school when we were eleven and we very quickly became what I thought of as 'best friends', we carried on being great friends until about when we were 15. We did so many things together, like I guess, best friends do. But then as time went on, we saw each other less and less and we both played a huge part in that, I am not going to sit here and blame it all on her or all on me, it was both of us that let it get that way. I went round to her house one time and she brought out her old diary and we were having a laugh about what she used to write about, but then she came to a page and I saw my name, so I looked at it and it said something along the lines of, "everyone thinks that me and Jazz are best friends but we aren't" and it really hurt me when I read that (I don't think she knows I saw it), which made it hard for me to strike a conversation knowing she thought that through all the times I thought we were best friends. Then it got to the point that when we were together, we just did not know what to say to each other. The silence was so painful. It was horrible. The end of the last year of high school came quickly and everyone started writing in each others Yearbooks and I wrote in hers that I was sorry we had drifted apart and that I hoped we became close again some day, and she wrote at the end of mine;

"Jazz, you have been theee bestest friend I could have ever asked for. We've had 5 years of some unforgettable times together! If we don't speak in years to come, just remember that I'll never forget our memories, I'll never forget you and more importantly, I'll never forget your shortness!!!;)... I have been so lucky to have you as a best mate! :D I'm that soppy, I am actually crying while writing this..."

The last picture of us at prom.

So was I her best friend at one point or wasn't I?

It makes me sad that we no longer even acknowledge each other, and we have never even spoke in person since starting college and soon we'll be leaving and I don't even know where she is going with her life. She was clever so she'll be going to university and probably become a scientist or something! I messaged her last year though but she always took ages to reply, then one day, I never even got a reply again. That was the last time we spoke.

Then I was sat on the bus the other day coming back from college on my own, and she was sat on her own too and I just SO wanted to go and sit by her and just ask how she was but I just couldn't.

I don't know what I should do. Do I try and amend things or don't I? Do I just sit back and let what's happened carry on happening? Who knows we might bump into each other in the future.

Has anyone else had a difficult situation like this?

What did you do?

Quick update - Two of the three universities I applied for have accepted me so I am super pleased.

I also woke up this morning with a red, swollen, painful eye. I look like I have just been smacked. So I applied so much eyeshadow before going to college when I probably should have left my eye alone. Oops. Now I am sat writing this with my own inventive eye patch (a warm cotton pad held with an elastic headband).

OH and I am also again super pleased because me and my dentist do not normally get on but the other day we did! When my adult teeth grew through, they were all very discoloured and very brittle (they think it was caused from some medicine I used when I was very ill one time) and my front two teeth became a lot worse each year. So I have been begging him for veneers but he said I can't have them until I am around 21-23, and I said I could not wait that long because I am so self-conscious about them. So he decided he would make me wait 6 months to see how I felt... and I had still not changed my mind by the other day, so he is going to try and sort them out! Yay! He is going to drill the parts off that are really discoloured and put a filling on each instead of veneers. The only problem is that you will be able to see the thin line of glue up close, although this will only be temp for a few years. But I am so so so happy so I do not care! I am booked in for the 21st of December :)

Anyone had anything similar done?

I am bizarre.

~Jazz

Brave souls.

2011-11-22T19:23:00.001Z

One thing that has been on my mind lately is the Titanic disaster. I don't know why really, I just suddenly decided a few days ago to look into it a bit more, and oh God, it is just so sad what happened. So many people died and they must have been so brave. I can't even imagine how they would have felt the night it began to sink. I don't even know why I am writing this, as I don't have much to say about it because I get so emotional! But I think one of the stories that touches me most about the Titanic sinking is the one about an old married couple, and the wife was being forced onto a lifeboat but she refused because she didn't want to leave her husband, (you see them in David Cameron's 1997 film portrayal of the incident, they are lying on the bed, holding each other, as the ship goes down) so they both go down with the ship together. Although, every aspect of the story touches me and I think it always will.

A problem I have though is that, since watching the film when I was little, I have been terrified of boats and water (there was also another incident with water which did not help my fear!), I would probably be fine with boats if they were not on water! I most likely only fear them because they travel on it. So in a way, I wish I didn't see the film, because it scares me so much. But everyone should see the film (preferably when they are older), as next year, it will be 100 years ago that it happened, and every individual that died that night should be remembered.

How do you feel about what happened?

~Jazz

My first attempt at cupcakes.

2011-11-12T19:21:00.000Z

Today I went to my grans to try and make cupcakes for the first time! I have obviously made fairy cakes before, but never cupcakes.

So my aunty dug out her old icing bag and nozzle for me, and my gran had got some ready-made buttercream for me to use. And I have to say, I thought it would be a lot easier... However, I kind if think maybe the buttercream was too thick and the nozzle was too big (note that I am trying to come up with as many reasons as possible so I cannot blame myself). So maybe next time I will try use a smaller nozzle and using home-made buttercream.

The best one I did, so proud!

My first try, tad too much buttercream...

Has anyone got any tips to help me improve my icing techniques?

Thank you in advance for any tips given :)

Quick update - I sent off my UCAS form for university, and one of my choices has offered me a place already! That is if I get the grades though, but I am still so pleased. Although, I have a few butterflies in my stomach still and feel a tad nervous about the idea.

Hope you are having a lovely weekend.

I am off for a Sunday roast at my grans tomorrow with the whole family from up north (there aren't many of us but it is still a rare occurrence)!

~Jazz

Christmas shopping.

2011-11-11T17:28:00.000Z

It is getting to the time now where everyone will be starting their Christmas shopping (unless you are already done, then go you!) and I know how stressful and hectic it can be. Not at all times of course, if you pick the right day to go you will be fine, but go on a Saturday, like most people, then I wish you the best of luck.

You are out in the bitter cold, carrying a ridiculous amount of bags, trying to worm your way through a slow-moving crowd. As soon as you enter a shop, it is unbearably hot and you feel you can't concentrate on what you are doing. You try to pick up a possible present, but it is a hassle as there is no where to put your bags as the shop is so crowded. You quickly decide to buy the item, not really having thought about it, carry on working your way through the crowd towards the till and people are stood bang in the middle of the isles, casually having a conversation whilst you and every other individual is trying to weave round them, only to find the queue is stupidly long and your bus is due in 10 minutes. You feel like you are becoming more and more stressed, so you drop the item wherever, storm out in a stress and go home. Then you have to repeat the day another time as you have not got all your presents.

This is what it is like for me anyway.

Although, I will be buying a lot of my presents online this year as I am worried it will snow and certain items will not arrive on time!

I don't even have many people to buy for (three to be precise), but I still find it so annoying. I just never know what to buy.

My mum.

She loves Take That, and will normally have anything Take That related, but I am sick of buying their stuff now. She needs something new. However, the problem is, she works in a primary school, so she gets presents off about 90 kids, so all the basic ideas are gone, candles, chocolate, wine, photo albums, photo frames, keyrings, socks, gloves, jewellery, you name it, she will get it. So it is impossible to buy for her.

My gran.

Grans are just generally hard to buy for. I can't get her slippers because she likes to choose her own and she does not wear much jewellery. I just never know what to get her, I can't even remember what I bought last year. I have probably wiped it from my memory because it was such an awful present.

Matthew (my boyfriend).

I feel like I have bought him everything now, watch, aftershave, photo-frame, iPod dock, remote controlled dragonfly (not much, but I can't think of much else you can get a boy!). He can't have chocolate because of some health problems or something and he has like every gadget going.

But please remember, there are other people in the world who won't even be receiving any presents. There are many charities that will accept new toys, within any price range, which they will give to underprivileged children. So, please, when you are out Christmas shopping, or browsing online for presents, if you see something within a nice budget for you, that would be suitable for a child, pop it into your basket. You only need to buy one if you are a little skint, like most people are round Christmas, but you will be placing a smile on a child's face this Christmas, and surely that is better than any present you will receive?

Also, look through your cupboards and go through any toys or clothing that you no longer need and take it to a local charity shop. Many families shop there for affordable presents for their family, so please make their life a little easier round Christmas, and provide a charity shop with the chance to offer some nice presents.

I have a few clothes so far to take, some books and I have got two new toys to take to Ryman's (they will wrap them and give them to children). See this page for more information if you live in North West England.

Happy Christmas shopping lovely bloggers!

Are you looking forward to Christmas shopping, or is it your worst nightmare?

~Jazz

(I also apologise for slacking on this the past week, I will be catching up with all your blogs).

Zoooom. I am a superhero.

2011-11-04T20:25:00.000Z

Superpowers are super cool. Everyone wants one, who wouldn't really?

In fact, I want three. Greedy, hey?

If I could choose 3 superpowers, I would choose:

Invisibility

Now, I know this is a pretty obvious one, and many would choose it, but God, it would just come in so handy! I mean I would be such a nosey person if I had this superpower, I would be invisible at such inappropriate times, for example, I would become invisible if I wanted to listen to a conversation I was not supposed to hear (pretty rude, I know, but it would be impossible to help!), I could also be pretty much a stalker, in the least bad way possible (that sounds like awful English, but I cannot word it any better!), like, I suppose I could kind of 'stalk' if you may, people who do bad things, like I could follow them and check that they are not going to cause any kind of trouble. Then, if they were, I would spring out of nowhere and save the day (wishful thinking). After all, the whole point of having a superpower should be to become a superhero, no?

Being able to go back and forth in time

(in other words I would like a Tardis, but that is not a superpower)

I do not really need to expand on this. If you do not know who Doctor Who is, or what the Tardis is, then you may read about it here. I want to become the Doctor's assistant. This superpower could help me. No. This would help me. I would make sure of this!

The ability to communicate with animals

(I do not really know if this would count but never mind!)

Being able to talk to animals would just be so cool (I have probably gathered this from films). But it really would. I do mean talk to them and them talk back to me, because I already do talk to animals, too much to be honest, I think my cat is sick of me rambling on. I do not think much could be done with this 'superpower', but I would find it quite nice! I wouldn't mind having a nice conversation with the frog in my garden. And who knows, the frog might have some vital information for me to do with a crime or something. Could happen.

What would your three superpowers be?

~Jazz

How hard is it to take a hint?

2011-10-30T21:11:00.000Z

I mean really?

I am sure everyone reading this knows when to take a hint.

This lad, who I have known for ages, used to keep texting me.

It was so annoying.

I am talking like everyday, and I do not even know him that well. We used to speak every now and then, like once a week or so, which was fine, I was cool with that. I do not like to keep talking to those I do not know that well, all the time (and those who I know I will never really get to know much more), but then about 3 months ago, he began texting every stupid bloody day. He knew I had a boyfriend and he had a girlfriend, I personally do not think that is acceptable to text someone else every day (some may argue against this, but it is what I think). I told my boyfriend and friends and they were like "ooh just ignore him", but I thought that was really harsh.

So, when he did text, I kept my replies to the ultimate minimum. And I can't even express that enough. I am talking about replies like, "haha yeah", "aha no", "no", "yes", "K". Come on, no one likes a "K" reply, but no, he seemed fine with it, he kept on texting. Surely he must have taken a hint by then!? Text after text after text after bloody, stupid, horrible, pathetic text.

I had to take everyone's advice and just not reply, really harsh and mean, I know, but I was getting so angry.

By this time, it was like the end of September. So the next day came and he text me, and I did not reply. He text me the day after that, and I did not reply. The same happened for a few more days, then one day, I did not get a text. I have never been so relieved in my life. Days went by and I still received no text off him.

He had got the hint!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Sorry about the amount of exclamation marks, but they are really needed to express how happy I was).

But oh no, about 2 nights ago, I was just about to drift off, happily wrapped up in my nice warm duvet, and then my phone buzzes.

I quickly checked it, and low and behold it is that bloody lad.

"Hey jazzzzzzz! Hows things??xxx"

Grrrrrrrrrrrr. The rage was building.

I didn't text back. Then in the afternoon the next day I received another text; "You get my text jazz???xx"

YES I DID GET IT.

Immediately, the first thing I had to do was download a call and text blocker.

I have now blocked his number.

EVERYONE, if you have a similar problem, and you have an android phone, download 'Mr.Number'. He is Mr.Fantasticoooo. My new love.

Anyone had any similar problems? Do you think I am being a tad harsh? I do not mind your views :)

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My song this week is such a beautiful one, I love it with absolutely all my heart and it will never, ever bore me. Hope you like it! And the film is just fab! Anyone else love Avatar?

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I hope you have all had a lovely weekend. Mine has been ok, just lazy days!

Also I put a face pack on the other night and my mum made me laugh and my face all cracked, don't you just hate that?

~Jazz

The day I was born.

2011-10-24T17:33:00.000+01:00

Mondays child is fair of face,
Tuesdays child is full of grace,
^^me!
Wednesdays child is full of woe,

Thursdays child has far to go,

Fridays child is loving and giving,

Saturdays child works hard for his living,

And the child that is born on the Sabbath day

Is bonny and blithe, and good and gay.

Anyone remember this poem? I could have sworn I was born on a Sunday (wishful thinking), but I have been proved wrong and I am a Tuesday baby.

Therefore, apparently some of my traits include wanting to be a winner, a desire to be a leader, aggressive, impatient and also abusive (my boyfriend will agree with this especially, as I like to punch, poke and pinch him. Harsh, I know, but so fun.) I am also meant to be fond of the colour red or a scarlet kind of colour. I am considered to enjoy doing things spur of the moment and I am quick to act. I am supposed to only like high quality things, I am sensitive and will be good at Arts, Business and Travelling and I like to ask for peoples opinions. I am meant to have a kind nature.

Nice glasses, Deirdre Barlow
wannabe!

And honestly, all of this is true. I am pretty impressed.

My birthstone is a peridot, which I find ugly.

I am a Leo and I was born in the year of the dog.

On my birthday, John Major was the UK Prime Minister

(I have no idea who this random man is).

Right now, I am 119 dog years old.

I am currently 6292 days old. I really actually thought I was like 20,000 days old. Shows how bad I am at maths! I am pretty disappointed with this result. I want to be old. :(

Also, on my birthday, Wet Wet Wet was at number one (UK) with Love Is All Around.

I HATE this song.

So much.

Ugh.

The moon looked like this:

Here I am being a Tuesday baby.

I think everyone should do one of these posts, they're really fun and you find out some cool things!

If you do, leave me the link for your post and I will check it out.

Click on these links for the sites I visited for:

The day.

Number one song.

The moon.

Extra information.

For the traits, I just searched the internet and found the answers on Yahoo.

Anyone else born on a Tuesday? Do you think the traits are very like you or far from you?

If not, what day were you born on?

~Jazz

Forest, photos and books.

2011-10-23T16:31:00.001+01:00

I was meant to be seeing Matt on Friday as he has booked the day off work (as I have previously mentioned we have a kind of long distance relationship), however all his trains were cancelled until 12pm so my mum agreed that he could stay overnight, therefore we got Friday and Saturday together!

On the Friday afternoon we went to a local forest kind of thing so he could take some pictures with his new camera and lens.

Here are some of the outcomes!

Sorry, I look a bit moody on them and my hair is awfully dry at the moment and needs a trim (I am also not exactly model material)!

The book I used was The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini, I really recommend reading it sometime, it is really very interesting and you learn about lives in Afghanistan.

We then had a bit of a lazy day on Sunday and just went to see some of my family for my cousins 19th and we had some cream cake, mmmm so yummy.

Ah, just to add, I was extremely p*ssed off (excuse the foul language) on Friday as I was just about to step on the train, and the train driver closed the doors and laughed at me! I have not been so furious in such a long time, I am really considering about complaining about the staff, the majority of them are arrogant and rude. I am probably overreacting, but it was just so frustrating!

I have not done much today, I have been to Matalan with my mum and gran and bought nothing, so we went to Outfit (this has a range of shops in it) and again, bought nothing.

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My song today is a sweet song to listen to if you are in a lovey mood, it is just so cute.

Hope you like it!

Quick update - I have decided not to reply to comments on my own blog as I doubt people will see the replies, so if I need to reply to you, I will do so on your blog :). & every time you comment I promise to take a look at your blog and see if there is anything I would like to comment on!

What have you done this weekend?

Also, please take a look at Matt's blog and Flickr!

Enjoy the rest of your Sunday, beautiful bloggers.

~Jazz

Simply dee-lish.

2011-10-20T19:55:00.000+01:00

Millionaires Shortbread.

You will need:
175g plain flour

125g & 50g soft butter

400g condensed milk

3 tbsp light brown sugar x2

150g chocolate

1. Mix the flour, sugar & butter together with your hands until it is like a ball, similar to the picture above.

2. GREASE a 13 x 9 inch tray (I emphasise grease, I will say why later) then squash the ball into the tray, prick it with a fork a few times (I know you will stab it plenty of times, I did too) then place in a pre-heated oven at 180'C or gas mark 4, for about 20 minutes. It should be golden brown when done.

3. To make the caramel, throw in the butter, sugar and condensed milk into a pan and heat it until it bubbles, then lower the heat and stir at all times, until it is thick. Mine went a tad wrong and I was busy talking, then realised it burnt, leaving burnt blobs in the caramel. My bad. Then smother the caramel on the shortbread. Leave to cool.

4. Melt the chocolate and then smother that on top. I then drizzled white chocolate on top just to make it look nicer.

5. Then cut it up! This is where I failed, I did not grease the tray enough and lost half the shortbread along the way of chiseling it out. SO GREASE THE TRAY.

Mmm so yummy.

What is your favourite cake/biscuit type thing?

~Jazz

Get off the phone, mother.

2011-10-19T21:32:00.000+01:00

Do you not just hate it when someone blames you for something that you have not even done?

I am not talking about things like being sent down for a murder which you haven't committed, I am talking about the clearly more serious things, such as being blamed for eating the last packet of crisps/chips.

(Note the sarcasm).

So today, I got the blame off my mother for increasing the phone/internet bill. Yes I do spend a bit of time on the internet, but not to the state where I go over the limit of what we are allowed. I am not that square-eyed.

She was there going psycho about how the bill had gone up a bit and was stating she was going to 'enforce internet limits within the house'. Crazy.

Then she rang up TalkTalk (the providers) and started going loopy down the phone. And when she came off the phone she was all quiet. Hmm, I wonder why.

I asked how come the bill had gone so high and the reply was;

"Oh, erm, there are just too, err, many phone calls being made."

And the only one who makes phone calls using the landline is my mother.

What. A. Shock.

My mother is the culprit. Not me. I am rather smug about this.

(I appear really bitchy in this, but it is just so damn annoying, especially when you don't even get an apology!)

Anyone else had any even more annoying situations like this?

Quick update - I have now finished for half term! I am so happy, I have become really fed up of college this term. I have also created an email for this blog, so please feel free to email me about anything, say hi, ask any question or even send me a joke you find funny! I will receive the emails on my phone so I will email back ASAP.

jazzsworld2@googlemail.com

~Jazz

I have just found...

2011-10-18T21:43:00.000+01:00

this beautiful picture.

Pocahontas is my all time favourite story and film and I have always found the story so beautiful.

And finding this picture made it even more beautiful to me.

I would love to try and paint this one day.

But for now I may print it off and maybe frame it.

What is your favourite film and why?

~Jazz

Incase you want to know why...

2011-10-16T20:10:00.000+01:00

My URL link involves cupcakes and sweets but my blog has nothing to do with either.

(I know I have posted today but never mind!)

I love cupcakes, they are just so cute, so simple and so tasty.

And I have a sweet tooth, which means I love sweets. Mmmm, so good.

So I do not really know why I made that my URL, but I had no idea what I was doing at the time anyway! Now I am scared to change it, so I will have to stick with it.

I will leave some pictures of my favourite sweets!

What are your favourite sweets? I would love to know!

~Jazz

Too soon for the too young?

2011-10-16T16:18:00.001+01:00

Does anyone here watch the X-Factor? Or heard of it? (If not, then it is a singing competition.)

Well there is a 16 year old girl, named Janet and she is just such an incredible singer, her voice is so soothing, it is simply beautiful. Janet is a little quiet and shy, but so sweet.

Then there was a 16 year old girl last week, named Amelia, but she was the complete opposite, she was a big singer, opting to sing Billie Jean by Michael Jackson on the first live show. She really let her personality shine through, she was confident and looked much older than her age. But unfortunately she was booted off the show and she really showed how upset she was.

So is 16 too young for a competition this big?

I personally think it is, they have not even had their full education yet, they have not experienced as much as the older contestants have, they have not even had all that long to expand on their singing skills, no matter how good they are. And how hard is it to wait for your dream, just to develop it further and get your full education? Surely not that hard. Don't get me wrong, I think they are both fantastic singers, but I think they will be even better in a few years, so why not wait? It really is silly in my opinion. On the other hand, I have been a tad hypocritical and have voted for Janet to stay in the competition, but she is in it now, so I may as well!

Do you think the same? Or are you completely for young singers?

I will leave you with Janet's version of Fix You by Coldplay from last weeks show, which I cannot stop listening to, it's fantastic.

(Sorry I could not find a HD version! & skip to 1:35 for the song.)

~Jazz

Don't you just love Autumn?

2011-10-14T16:42:00.001+01:00

Or fall. Whatever floats your boat.

I love conkers. Collecting them just makes me happy.

My gran has a wood at the end of her garden so loads of them fall into her garden. So the other day, I went and collected some for myself, and left the rest for the squirrels.

Have you ever heard of the story that if you place conkers in your house, for example, in corners of rooms or on your windowsills, it keeps spiders away? Well I did recently, so this is why I went to collect them. You have probably just concluded that I do not like spiders. You are correct! I hate them, like many people, so there is no need to go into an explanation why I do not like them. When I got home, I placed conkers absolutely everywhere. It is safe to say my mum was not impressed when she kept standing on them.

So the only place I am now allowed to keep them, is in my bedroom. And my bedroom never gets spiders in there anyway, so I will never know if the story is true or not.

I also like kicking leaves and crunching them with my foot. Ahhh, it feels so good. And beginning to wear Winter clothing feels so nice.

I don't think I have ever really posted a proper, or clear picture of me on here, so I will do now, just incase you want to know who is typing, and to see some of the conkers I collected.

Pardon the fact I went a bit OTT on Photoshop, I rather like the white effect. Also, pardon the fact again, that I am a tad un-photogenic, ask anyone I know. It runs in the family actually. Not that I look much different in real life to be honest, it must just be my face, I blame my genes.

Never mind, the conkers look faaaabulous though.

I am going to Wales tomorrow to look at a university. Any ideas on fun things I can do in the car? I have to put up with my mother for 2 and a half hours, most likely listening to bands from the 80s.

Have a lovely weekend, fellow bloggers.

EDIT - Slight change of plan, I have suddenly decided I do not want to go to Bangor University anymore. (Typical me, always changing my mind! Anyone else like that?) It is a pain to get to, there would not be much to do there, and I cannot afford to live in uni for all three years to be honest. Therefore I will not be visiting Wales tomorrow, nor have a long car journey. However, I will be visiting another university, so I will still have a journey with my mother! Just a train journey and not a car journey.

Just to add, I am spending my whole Sunday doing coursework. Oh the joys. Please wish me luck.

What are you doing this weekend?

~Jazz

Relationships I have missed out on.

2011-10-11T18:15:00.000+01:00

There are 4 types of relationships I have missed out on or not seen within a family circle.

1. A Grandad.

I know I had one on my Dads side, but he never got in contact with me or vice versa, and I don't speak to any family in Sweden anyway, but he is dead now. But on my Mums side I don't really have the slightest clue who he is. My mum has never mentioned having a dad nor my Gran mentioned having a husband, but she has mentioned things from her wedding. And I have never asked who my Grandad is. I think he may have been called Michael, as there is a man called Michael (then my surname) in my Grans phonebook and then a number, obviously. But he is never mentioned. Never. I want to know I suppose, because he is my Grandad after all, and I don't know what it is like to have one, I don't know what they do, do they buy special sweets from years ago? Do they always have a grump on? I have no idea, I will try and find out one day. The Grandad from The Parent Trap was overly cute.

2. A Gran and Grandad relationship.

I have my Gran living down the road from me, but as I just stated, I have no idea who her husband is (she is still married), or who my Grandad is. Therefore I have never experienced what it is like to see a relationship between the two. I would like to think of them to be a sweet old couple, the type that still hold hands and laugh together. But I have never experienced that relationship, so I wouldn't know. The old Allie and Noah from The Notebook are what I would like them to be like (obviously when Allie remembered Noah).

3. A Dad.

Yes, I do have a Dad. But as I have previously mentioned we do not speak because of my own reasons. I have experienced having a Dad a few times in my life, for example when I used to visit Sweden and when he used to come over to England every now and then, but he never acted like a father. He still doesn't, he has never sent any money over to my Mum to help look after me and my brother, but he will put money towards his girlfriend and her child, also called Jasmine, which I find sick in all honesty (yes, she does have an E on the end and she pronounces it Jasssmeeen, whereas I have no E on the end of my name and pronounce it Jazzmin, so we don't really have the same name). He has never asked in my life how I am doing at school or college or what grades I am getting. He probably rings about once every 2 months to speak to my brother (Jai finds him amazing and thinks the sun shines out of his arse). So I have not spoke to my 'Dad' for years, and I never intend to again. I wish I had a different father, I sometimes hate my mother for ever being with him. I always dreamt of having a father like Nick out of The Parent Trap, he just seemed so caring and amazing, even if he was dumb for being with Meredith. It was like a dream to have him as a father. It still is really, but I have coped practically seventeen years without one, I can cope a bit longer. I even wanted my Mum to get married for absolutely ages, just so I could have a stepdad, I wanted to feel love from a father like figure, I still do really, I wouldn't mind my Mum seeing a man. But again, I have coped seventeen years without a father like figure, I can cope longer.

4. A Mother and Father relationship.

My Mum and Dad ~~split up~~ when I was a baby, so I never saw them together, well I did, but not in a lovey or friendly way. And because my Mum never met a man and never got married, I have never witnessed a mother and father relationship in my own home. I do not think this bothers me so much, well it does, because I think it would feel so incredibly special to feel that love in a home (I suppose you wouldn't really notice it if you have always been around it), but then again, I am not bothered by the fact that I do not have to witness it! I couldn't really think of an example from a film that makes me really jealous that I don't experience the love a mum and dad would bring to a home, but I love the film The Time Traveler's Wife, and Henry and Clare were actually really lovely parents when they had Alba.

~Jazz

The post I forgot to name...

2011-10-09T15:21:00.000+01:00

I am actually writing this on Saturday night! Only because I have so much work to do, it is actually horrible, I had a proper dramatic scene at home yesterday (Friday) because I got given so much work to do, so I am a little emotional lately and because I have been so stressed, I have come out in SO many spots, it is actually horrible (I have always got them since around the age of 12 and for the life of me, I cannot get rid of them), so that is making me more stressed!

Anyway...

Well, my song today is just lovely to listen to. I haven't got much to say about it really, it is not a favourite of mine but I don't want to just post my favourite songs on Sunday's, I want different things every week. It is absolutely beautiful though.

Unfortunately you cannot download it anymore on iTunes (I don't think anyway), I am unsure why to be honest. But I think you may be able to download it illegally or rip it off Youtube (I know, it is wrong, but it is beautiful, so worth it).

" Bastille - Timepiece "

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I am currently starting my Christmas shopping (yayyy)! I really wish I could discuss what I am going to get Matt, because I am not sure if he will like it, so I would like to hear opinions! However I can't because he is following me on here, even if he doesn't read the posts! I don't really know what I am going to get my Mum and Gran though, I am at the stage where I have bought everything for everyone now, or they own everything going. So I am in a tricky position!

I want a Kindle for myself, but I really would like the Kindle Fire, however only the US Amazon is selling it at the moment, so it will probably be a while before it comes to England, and when it does, if it does, the price will shoot up. So, I am pretty gutted! I don't really want a normal Kindle, I think they are a bit overpriced. Anyone got one? Or ordered a Kindle Fire? If I am completely honest, I want an iPad hehe, I have expensive taste, but I would never be allowed one!

What does everyone else want for Christmas? Are you even excited!? I really am, I just love wrapping up presents!

I probably will not do a big post in the week but I will let you know how my work is going!

Have a nice week.

OH and Matt has just bought another DSLR camera! (He used to do photography at college and took loads of amazing pictures, but then started an apprenticeship which he loves and he had to sell his camera for money and I have been desperate for him to get another camera and he got one yesterday! So I am extremely pleased and cannot WAIT to mess around with it!) Click here to look at his Flickr, and here to look at his new blog!

~Jazz

Why do vets hold animals weirdly?

2011-10-06T19:10:00.000+01:00

It is true though, is it not?

I have just had a trip to the vets with Izzy as she had an ingrown claw, a very bizarre looking thing. It is only down the road but we have to take the car because it is a bit of treck down a long road, and the weather here is awful. And I mean that. It is just so windy, and when it rains, it rains hard. So we pushed her into the cat box and I sat in the backseat of the car with her. And oh my God. I have never experienced her wail so much in my life, she never meows. One of the noises in the car was;

Meeeowwwwwww, meeeowwwwww, meeeeowwww, MEEEEOWWWWWW.

And the only other was;

Who's going to the claw-beautician!? Izzzzzzzzy is! Lalalalalaa, Izzy's going to the claw-beautician laaaaaa laa lalalalalaa.

Her doing the meowing, me doing the singing. And she STILL wailed. She is like 60 odd in cat years too. Pffft, such a baby. (I secretly wanted to cuddle her but shhh, keep quiet.)

She looks evil here, but she was a little peed off.

We got into the vets and there was this one, FAT, dog in there. I think all we know he was clearly there for doggy Weight-Watchers. Then we waited, and waited, and waited some more until she called us in. We had to turn the box upside down to get her out, she was adamant she was not going into the bitches hands (pardon my French).

But when the hands finally grabbed Wiz, I can't even explain what she did. She like sprawled her hands all over her body, my cat was in a cage with these huge man like hands around her, unable to move. She then pulled Wiz up to her belly and started rubbing her hands up and down her whilst talking to us, making all her fur fly everywhere, what on earth!? Why do that? Then the worst happened, the vet with the huge man like hands called my little baby, wait for it...

CHICKEN.

Who calls a cat 'chicken' really? Cats would happily eat a chicken, I know mine would.

So she had her claws clipped and they had to pull out the claw that was stuck in her paw (woo, I am a poet) which must have hurt because Izzy hissed at the evil woman. HA. You go Wizzy.

We then got a chippy tea and headed home to a nice warm, cosy house!

Izzy is fine and is chilling upstairs now because she is in a mood with everyone.

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Quick update - I have finished my personal statement and ready to send it off! I am just waiting to have my reference wrote up (yay)! I am still looking for universities to apply for but cannot really find any I like, I found one but then was quickly turned off by it! Not much else is happening with me really.

I have been a little annoyed because my brother has asked his girlfriend (of only a few months) to go to Sweden with him next year (read 'half of me' and translate for more info) which I think is a little unfair and disrespectful, I know it is my choice I don't go over there, but, I'm not to keen on the idea of her going and seeing family I haven't seen for years, again, I know my choice, but it comes with complicated situations. And also with the pair of them, Jai is allowed to go to Center Parcs with his girlfriend and her family, and share a room, and my mum did not even hesitate, whereas when I asked to stay at Matty's once, him sleeping downstairs, she took weeks to decide. I know he is 18, but I still find it unfair, I had been with Matt for like 18 months at the time and Jai has been with his girlfriend for 4 months or whatever.

Do you have any thoughts on the situations? Or any experiences with vets? I would love to hear! Hope you are having a good week and the weather is not too bad where you are.

~Jazz

Relaxation.

2011-10-02T17:09:00.000+01:00

This song just sends me into my own world and makes me feel so peaceful.

It is complete relaxation.

Even the official video for it just makes you forget about the world and all your problems, it gives you a sense of freedom and makes you do that big deep breath whilst smiling, which helps you realise your life is pretty good. And I believe everyone needs that certain deep breath every once in a while.

I finished my personal statement for university today, it will just need editing a few times before it gets sent off, so I am now listening to this song, sat in the back room, looking out the French doors, watching the typical British weather (yep, the sun has gone and we're back to normal). The light rain is falling to the ground and every now and then a leaf falls off the apple tree, and this song just helps set a relaxing scene.

" Holocene - Bon Iver "

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On Friday night I went to a local firework show with some friends, we sat on the sea wall and got a pretty good view.

I don't think I can explain how fireworks make me feel. Just watching them, like Bon Iver's song, sends me off into my own world. They are just magnificent. Then when it gets to the end of the display and all the huge fireworks and bangs go off at once, I feel SO much excitement inside me, everything just disappears and all that is in my mind is there and then, everything else has been forgotten.

My favourite part of the display was when Celine Dion's 'My Heart Will Go On' was

being played and the fireworks were going off in sync with the music, it was amazing, I got butterflies in my tummy.

I am going to try and blog less frequently so I have more to say on each blog from now on. But let me know whether you have had a nice weekend, what you have done and whether you have any firework shows coming up near you. I love to hear from others. Oh and I hope you enjoy the song. I will leave you with some pictures of my wonderful Friday night.

(Can someone please tell me how I can get medium sized images next to each other as well!?)

This would have been so good if I had just taken it one or two seconds later!

~Jazz

Attempting cookie dough.

2011-10-02T16:26:00.000+01:00

Whilst at my boyfriends house yesterday I wanted to try and make Pizza Hut's cookie dough. I have done it before. And it has gone better before. But never mind, it was still simply

deeeee-lish.

So first off you need some cookies, any type you like, and some chocolate. I would normally have vanilla ice cream with it as well but we did not have any.

You then need to melt the chocolate, do it however you like melting it, and stick the however many cookies in the microwave. I put them in for a minute then checked on them and they needed another minute. When they have melted properly, they will still be round and look like they originally did, but your finger should sink into them.

Then all you need to do is drizzle the chocolate on top! (Normally I would put a scoop of vanilla ice cream in the middle then drizzle the chocolate as the cookies are quite dry).

Matt thought it looked gross, but it was actually so nice (mmmm).
However I did feel a tad sick afterwards, I'll rethink my portion size next time...

~Jazz