A first 'vlog' - depressing and boring.

I noticed actually quite a lot of bloggers lately have been doing vlogs, and I have wanted to do one for about a week or so, because I wanted to properly get my feelings out, so thought this would be a good idea. I didn't really make it for anyone to watch, kind of just for myself to get it out and for me to look back on in years to come, as this blog is about my life, so I want to record as much of it as possible!

But if you do watch it, it is very boring and depressing, I will happily admit that, the whole thing is just one giant ramble. There's no fun in talking about a breakup. I filmed in black and white incase I needed to cry, so no one would notice my puffy, red eyes if they watched! My voice sounds like a man and I mumble in places! And the video is quite choppy and in very random order, repeated and doesn't make sense in places. This is because I kept forgetting what I was talking about and it was originally 30mins long, so had to cut a lot out. Don't feel you have to watch. Again, I just did it for myself really :) And please excuse that ugly thumbnail ha! Oh and also please excuse the messy room.

Also, the thing I talk about near the end, the 'past thing', I did end up speaking to someone about it, but not someone I actually know, just an anonymous person you email. And I think I have decided to come 'open', if you like, about this thing in the summer. This isn't a promise though, I might change my mind. But if I do tell, then a video will be made about it. And I think that will be a pretty long video, because there will be a long explanation and it would be kind of important. But for now, it doesn't really need talking about :)

Hope you are all ok!

I promise I will catch up with blogs properly as soon as possible.

Jazz